I know exactly how you feel. I was adopted when I was three months old, and have never met my biological parents. I also have no idea why my parents gave me up. But I relate to your feelings about feeling distant from the people who took you in. I know they love me, and they worry if I'm okay with the whole being adopted thing. I've known since I was little enough to understand, but it didn't really start to bug me until recently. I feel like I'm just something that got dumped on someone else's doorstep sometimes. I have mixed feelings about meeting my biological parents, because I don't know if I want to know them after they gave me up. I guess the only thing I really want to know from them is why they didn't keep me. My adoptive parents keep telling me it's probably because they couldn't give me what I needed, but when you grow up not knowing why I can't help but feel that maybe they didn't want me. And sometimes I get the feeling I'm just a burden on my adoptive parents too, and I think awful things about them and ask them in my head why they adopted me if I'm just so much trouble. But yeah, I get what you're saying.

omg, I just watched Spaceballs 3 hours ago.

"So, Lonestar. Now you see why Evil will always triumph, because Good is dumb."

"On this ship you will refer to me as 'Idiot' not 'You Captain'!"

LONESTAR:"What the hell was that noise?!"
DOT:"That was my Virgin Alarm. Programmed to go off before you do."

COLONEL SANDERS: "Sir!"
DARK HELMET: *snatching up his dolls* "WHAT?!"
COLONEL SANDERS: "Sir, you're needed on the brig."
DARK HELMET: "KNOCK NEXT TIME! Did you see anything?"
COLONEL SANDERS:"No sir, I didn't see you playing with your dolls again."

And I read off the internet that Mel Brooks is currently writing the screenplay for Spaceballs 2: The Search for More Money. Dead serious. o_o